I was reading my first few blog posts (When I used to do clean-eating) and it scared me. After my first challenge of not eating junk food for 30 days I had come down to 46kg and still wanted to lose more. I had the most pathetic relationship with food. I was living off of cardio and light weights. I was obsessed with the weighing scale. I remember the way I used to be happy whenever my calories came under 1000. Mental.
Look at those macros. Barely any calories, barely any carbs, pathetic macros for protein.
(Ignore the numbers in red telling me i’m eating too much, haha)
It’s safe to say i’ve made solid progress. Am I still 46kg? HELL NO. I’m at a healthy 51/52 (weight fluctuates between those two numbers). I don’t even do cardio anymore to be honest. Maybe once in a while, but barely. It’s just lifting. I have changed so much and I am so proud of myself for coming out of the mentality I was in. My physique made the best progress once I got out of the state I was in. I am very happy fitness and physique-wise.
In other news, shoulder presses are very hard. I still can’t do a proper military press with 20kg without adding a bounce (push press), but i’m working on it. My PR for squats, shoulder press and upright row are stuck at the moment and the only way I can keep going higher with lifts is if I just keep working on it. No excuses, keep going with the grind. I was trying for a new squat and press PR a few days ago but I couldn’t land it. It’s okay though, i’ll get there eventually.
Women like this motivate the hell out of me. (Lauren Fisher)